My photography hiatus. You can read a little more on artist breaks HERE!
I’ve attempted to write this post about 10 different times over the course of the last nine months, and every single time, I’ve deleted the post. Sigh. Finally, I mustered up enough courage to write a mini version of my previous attempts in this blog post. I promise, it should be a quick and easy five-minute read!
I feel like a true artist experiences ups and downs in their art career. Almost like waves. While starting out, they’re at the bottom and slowly, with some success, they work their way up the wave. Over time, they lose inspiration. Energy. Time. And down they go. Finally, with some inspiration and new direction, the artist works their way back up. Some artist go in a completely different direction, others take breaks, others look for inspiration and add to their existing art and so forth. You got it, right? That’s basically what happened to me.
Photography has always been a part of me and my life. My constant. I literally breathe, eat, and sleep photography. It’s been there during the most difficult times, the scariest times and the happiest times in my life. Photography has always been a dependable way of getting through all aspects life-but when I started to dislike creating art, I panicked and dropped everything immediately. My dislike for photography was foreign, uncharted territory and I had no idea how to tread through it. I was terrified. You see, with me, creating art isn’t just about making money-it’s something I enjoy. LOVE. There’s a lot emotion and passion in each piece of art I create-so being an artist isn’t just a random 9-5 job, it’s so much more than that. So in the end, I picked taking a hiatus to rekindle my passion for photography, over a lovely income. It was a huge blow to me and my family life-but thankfully, everyone was supportive and we trekked through that 1.5 years with grace.
During that year off, I did a lot of soul-searching (and became an employee!)
- I looked for new inspiration outside of the wedding photography network in Maine. I went to museums. Studied seasoned photographers like Vivian Maer, Sally Hanson, and Ansel Adams. I met other film photographers.
- I studied different medium of photography. Film. I shot with my Rolleiflex. Developed my own film by hand. Printed my own work in the darkroom. I learned about accepting mistakes and appreciating little mundane moments in my life.
- I experienced being an employee, for the first time in a decade. Sadly, it didn’t end well. Sooooo, it was an eye opener. Being my own boss and in control of my work life and personal life-is SO MUCH BETTER. I’ll take all the business entrepreneurship baggage over being an employee-any day. Hands down.
- I began to understand my value and worth. I fully understand that there’s an overwhelming amount of photographers in the world, but there isn’t a single one of them with my education, experience, knowledge and eye. Not one. With that being said, I respect and value myself as an artist and feel that being compensated correctly is the only way to run a successful business and be a successful and happy artist.
Do I have any regrets taking a hiatus? Yes and no. The only regret I have is, I should’ve had returning plans in place. Set in stone and announced to the world. So, I’m essentially starting from the bottom again. Back on that wave, but with a totally new perspective. I’m happy with the way things are and honestly wouldn’t change the last decade of being an artist. I’m looking forward to seeing what the future holds and what *hopefully* good things it brings into my life as an artist!
**Side note-my website. I’m sure some of you have been scratching your head, trying to figure out what’s going on? Along side of being a portrait and wedding photographer, I want to get into lifestyle & travel blogging. With my travels, I want to experience and support Maine small businesses and my lifestyle aspect will be set around my personal life and hobbies. No plans set in stone, but a good goal to have for my future!